Gratitude Diary: That Determination Has Been Paying Off

My mental state was a little different a year ago.  Not for the first time, this was happening:

I was still determined though, no matter how much it was hurting to continue.  I wrote this:

This afternoon is for rest. Self hugging. Self love. Silence. Letting our head be what it is.

Some days are better than others.

Some days thoughts are more annoying than a biblically dripping tap.

Some days they feel louder and more powerful than the fiercest ogress or the sound I produced in the theatre group last night.

This evening we will go out again.

Because life will triumph. And we have a life to continue to build.

Thoughts won't win. They are only thoughts. Habits from a past made present. They are not necessarily real.

I think I can say, a year on, that such determination has been paying off.

And that is something for which I can offer deep gratitude.  Yes, my gratitude diary hasn't been happening.  I let it not happen when I was ill for a week and haven't restarted it.  There's been a lot to be thankful for in events, people, capabilities, and all manner of things that are too easy to take for granted.

Today I am thankful that life has been triumphing.  I'm thankful too that I have a writing workshop and a theatre workshop to go to today.  And that the sun is shining and that spilling milk this morning all over a blanket is so easily fixed with a washing machine!